Deployment came and went, before I knew it..we were already sharing our second, first kiss. Not only for the both of us, but for him and autumn, too. As soon as I started routine all my days seemed to mesh together as one, I can’t say it got easier, but it got easier DEALING with my sadness. It has still been difficult nonetheless. We had our photos taken by : “photos by Adriana” upon his arrival for r&r. I couldn’t have made a better decision in that, I can’t wait to show Autumn these beautiful photos one day. I surprised Isaac at the airport with our families. As per his “request” he demanded NO ONE to be there, me and autumn, an that’s it. I told him I wanted to be a little selfish and get my hugs and kisses, and wouldn’t be able to do that holding Autumn. So, I convinced him to let my mom come so she could hold her while I drowned him with long overdue love! (Autumn started walking a few days prior to his homecoming, OF COURSE, RIGHT?) so after all my lovins my mom put autumn down to walk to her daddy :) then of course all those wonderful emotions ran through us… After all was said and done.. We went to baggage claim, and as soon as we turned the corner, there sat his disabled mother, in her wheel chair, in tears. The first time he’s seen or spoken to her since he deployed!! I bent over backwards and jumped through flaming hoops JUST to be sure she made it, and I wouldn’t have changed my stressful, expensive, out of control gesture for the world. The look on both of their faces was more than anything I could’ve asked for. Of course after he saw his mom (my main reason for the surprise at the airport) he said hi to everyone else, and we all visited and laughed before we went home.
He was home for thanksgiving, and I put together an early birthday party for Autumn.. So we celebrated her “birthday” (even though its on the 22nd of this month). Two weeks will never be enough, especially when he’s missed so much, but we tried to make the best of it. Now it’s been six weeks since he left, and me and Autumn are heading back to Germany in three weeks, and just about three weeks after that, Isaac is meeting us there to end his deployment tour! Thank god, we have made it more than half way through and it’s NEARLY over. The next few weeks, I’m just going to forget they even happened, because I strongly believe THAT is how fast they’re going to go. We’ve had our hardest of times in marriage/relationship during this deployment because it is so hard to stay strong, but we did it. We did it, we HELD TIGHT, we never wouldt have regardless, I’m just saying there were some really difficult nights and extremely long days where all I wanted to do was curl in a ball and cry, I almost couldn’t even take care of my own daughter let alone take a steady breath. It’s a lot harder with a child involved.. Looking at her, seeing him, but she also made it that much easier, bringing us closer together trying to fight the pain the distance was causing. Though we had our ups and our downs, over all, it taught me so much about appreciation, NEVER take his presence for granted no matter how many buttons he may push, which is SO VERY OFTEN AND SO VERY MANY. But, the best thing about it, it STILL makes me smile, thinking about how bad our small habits annoy each other at home, under the saw roof, and we just laugh about it.. No matter how much we hate it, we laugh.. It’s the little things, the tiny things I hated and disagreed with that I just MISS THE MOST. Like, the way he would throw his nasty sweaty socks in my face after a long day at work, in his combat boots, walking in the snow, yeah, that NASTY uncalled for stuff. I miss it. A lot. My day wouldn’t be complete if he didn’t pull some crazy, Isaac like thing solely to piss me off..